I had a really good KickOff session today with the DH & Exco team. Some excellent food for thoughts, and how to execute them on a property level. It has been such a joy working with them and learning from some of the best. I've been blessed, but knowledge has also come at a cost. 
But I rather eventually pursue a career in this than one of only money and sales. People development and growth is my purpose and meaning in my career. 

6 years, it's been a while, a long while. 

Mom has quit the business to focus on her life's true calling. 

Sis has found the man who can put up with her short temper and domineering sides, and my beautiful niece has joined the family. She has brought so much joy I could never imagine. 

I've worked for 4.5 yrs now, in the same place over different roles. Met some great leaders and learnt from some of the best. Met great friends and fantastic teammates. Made some peers who will support regardless and met some inspirational mentors. Met and managed some owners and senior leaders, managing my team with 100% engagement and bringing different teams to greater success in this place. New challenge awaits. Or another too, awaits. 

She has left. Over 2 yrs now. After almost 6. Still occupies this lingering space, as much as I know it doesn't exist anymore. It was beautiful, those 6 years where we transited from school to work and new environments and expectations. As soon as it started, it ended in almost the same fashion. Let go. Let go. I shall and will, let go. Everything happens for a reason. It always does. It did, and it shall again. We're all but waiting for someone this lifetime. 

We have travelled together finally! Aussie and Korea. More places to come please. 

We will travel soon! Chickies we shall and will. 

6years later, will I be writing here again, in what capacity and in what mindset. 6 years later, would I have achieved my career goal? Or would life has brought us to a different playground altogether to realise my true calling. 

Netball remains my passion. I've trained with some like-minded peers from SC. Awesome people. 

Jogging has become my daily must-do, for health and beauty reasons. 

Gram's is no longer a daily thing. More a quarterly thing. This has not been healthy at all. It's time to change. 

I've revisited Crescent as guest of honour, as sharers in Career Days, it has been a huge honour inspiring these ladies and leaders of tomorrow. This has been such a special place for me, for many reasons more than one. 

2016, I shall

- be courageous

- be adventurous

- be disciplined

- be forthcoming

- be passionate

- be accomplished

- find my calling

- be open to new opportunities, in every way of life

- continue to be healthy

- be happy (: 

reliving those bits n pieces
feelin the adrenaline again
its amazing.
countless untold stories
trails across miles
our shared secrets.

the thought thrills
it always did
and always does
unspeakable
no words can describe this.
a place called our home.

have you ever skipped home from sch cos home has all that you will ever need?
i have.

abandoned.
been a blast!
how a year can change someone
goals.directions.moments.dreams.
it all comes along
and it's been pretty
pretty stubbon
bitchy
a side for none
but the eyes of ours

thanks.

for you.

writing again in the longest time. just before she goes.
the past 6 months have been amazing.
loved.
next 4 will be fine.
hard to do it.
but yes.
love.

jaded.

quite an eventful three weeks

work has been fine
getting to learn more now
and thankful for the help he's giving
and of cos
pretty colleague makes things so much better (: hah.
had great lunch on friday. and good news too.
it's just that conincidental sometimes

went for interviews
good learning experience definitely
but makes me doubtful again
elitist. bullshit.
another one on wednesday.
less nervous this time round
i'm just glad to have made it thus far.
and at the end of the day
im beginning to wonder what may happen if it advances.
perhaps suited more for normality.
being up, bearing expectations.
damn tiring.
3 yrs of this load has made me skeptical.

graduation day soon
28 may (:
then grad dinner on 31st. urgh
im looking forward to graduation,
definitely not the dinner thou.
i dun see the pt in this.
give me OUR grad dinner
not urs.

this month appears to be getting short
almost one day of leave each week
great.

and seeing the triplets has maded this week wonderful
can't find another word more describing, not just cute
but extremely.
when u see three little ones walking around the hse
perfect (:

off to dramas.
in the end
i'm still a drama queen.
not there.
but here.

i realised
i can't handle when it really comes.

saturday morning

feelin good on a saturday morning
work has been freakin boring
ACCOUNTANTS HAVE NO LIFE
nobody talks
it's disgusting
my irksome mentor hasn't been helpful either

but on a brighter note
my pretty colleague asked me out for lunch :)
i need a gym partner.

was watching the class video daisy made for final ppt
each time i watch it
feelings are stirred up
and with each time
im feeling more appreciative
and thankful
working w such a motivated class.

next week seems fun
haircut on monday
meetup w annie and sy on thurs
going back for baoc on friday w the rest
tues and wed to recover
mid week's damn hard to pass.

and lunching at raffles place is terrible
tissue papers, name tags, umbrellas
watever can be used to 'chop' a place
havent been lunching well
weather and crowd are major turnoffs
balances the insufficient exercising though i guess.

other than work
life's kinda borin
i need to find sth to do
and thank whoever it may be
for the new jurong redevelopment
my flat price will be gg up
YEAH
i'll probably be working in jurong in future
the thought of home and work being so near
sounds wonderful
im only hoping it doesn't really take 15 years
i'll be an old woman by then

and this thought suddenly crossed my mind
im not gonna spend 10 years fighting with crowds for lunch
time to think of sth.

don't need to look at paradise.
everyday can be legendary.

heartened

just came from another entry
very heartened to know i'm on the right track
after such a long struggle
it took me a long time
to realise it's just that simple
yes. that simple.
just a min of putting things down
and calling or typing
tt's the difference.
i'm glad things have turned out this way:)

and i got the awaited letter
wasn't as excited as i thought i would be
but definitely happy still.
i just had a pt to prove
and now i've that i've proven it
i need to find a second point to make.

first day of office work today
man an accountant's life is dead boring
my most commonly used qs today-
do you need help?
i figured im gona bring some stuff to read
hopefully it gets busier
and i never knew i'm expected to take 2 hours to print 17 files
now i know why everyone has a job
cos they simply sit on the job
and take 2 days to finish what could be done in 4 hours
right.
that's to way to keep your job it seems.
i'm going to ask my pretty colleague for lunch soon
when i cant even remember her name
damn.

i've been having amazingly wonderful dreams
makes me look forward to sleeping now each night.

post interview

done with interview.
was alil nerve wrecking initially when u see the big group
but im glad janice was around
it definitely made things easier

interview topic was about happiness being preordained
so the profs just shot questions for discussions at us
and u just really had to speak
cos everyone's trying so hard to be heard
relatively fine.
whether or not i'll get in is secondary
im just glad i went for it
it definitely was an experience
im still hoping for that other letter

and yes. i agree with the thoughts of an interviewee in our group
happiness is really about being contented
and how much you want it.

busy at work straight after the interview
working on saturay too wasn't interesting at all
im just glad its over
and looking forward to my new job next week:)
though there are so many reasons for me to hesitate
i think it's time i push myself through this.

ive no idea why my google countdown timer
is counting down to graduation

on a last note
i'm very glad i chose 3 yrs and not 2
i've been seeing the difference
pros and cons yes
but definitely more of the former
ive met amazing people
and over the past few weeks
ive learnt alot
things i know would have been neglected if not for them
so. im thankful he led me in this direction
now it's for me to find my own

it's crazy but
when u keep replaying the song
it somehow realises.

urge

sudden urge to blog before gg off for smu interview
it's been bugging me
i've no idea why either
just been feeling irritable
group interview doesnt help either
and definitely not a writing component after that

started work this week
very flexible hours honestly
but ive decided to do sth more relevant
hopefully gives me sm direction after this

end of 6 sems at np
last sem was good
good for all definitely
and we deserve it
i've been gg back to school
gyming and meeting up
finally feel healthy

so after spending one month gg for interviews
and choosing over n again
its time to get sth done

been watching ads these couple of days
interesting. very

been avoiding sm things
sorting sm out
feels like ive been doing this for years

and i enjoyed my 20th this year
thanks so much to everyone
goodbye teen
hello ty

off to get ready
hope it'll be good
hoping for another
but it's still an alternative
i hope

angel in disguise

ages since the last post. thought i would abandon it d
but decided to put some thoughts down.

tmr's my last presentation in np.
unique one definitely.
sth apart from the typical ppts
as im penning the points down for my individual report
i realised
i've learnt alot. intangible.
i rem dreading the process
waking up and going to bed with red camp
planning for business studies diploma display.
developing endless proposals and incorporating countless changes
running the 3 days of red camp
the nivea branding.
and yes. we made business studies the top diploma chosen in np.

with the class
packing and packing
meetings and MORE meetings
production line

with the lecturers
emails and more emails
calls and more calls
changes and more changes

with nivea
negotiation and more negotiation
samples, n more samples
collection of products
emails and yes, still more emails
crazy anticipation for meeting altricia from nivea
complains from daphne

but i've learnt.

with my class
humility
determination
drive
commitment
their support

with lecturers and nivea
working with lecturers/mgmt and external parties
tact
still humility
professionalism
efficiency
yes. better negotiation

i'm thankful.
for the people around
typically
the nostalgia's coming

this sem's projects:
smm (2)
ib (5 and 1 major)
bb ( 2)
lam (2)
bpc (yr's efforts)
hcom(2)
wisp (3)

i've enjoyed
and really learnt
though sometimes the result doesn't quantify the efforts
i've had great proj mates
absolutely

alot more for each of them
but damn difficult to put into words
i really appreciate.

and the team.
passed down
passed on the baby
2 years
all the ups and downs written here
and i told her.
after so long.
after it was long over.
thankful.

final presentation tmr.
afterwhich, back to final exams

and lately, one additional interest. v.
crazily.

ytd night was good:)
spent precious time with them
and hsin drove us around:]
somehow the whole idea
that pple around me are starting to drive
makes it all feel so old
the feeling of..
we've all grown up.















things change
and i guess
the stuff u do tgt over the years change too
it just becomes weird to do sth like u did in pri sch
sec sch.
damn awful feeling
but pple just keep movin on.
dun they.

visited ntu hall last night w them
and surprise visit to peishan
weird but nice:)
the past two days have been borin
gg back to sch for NEXT SEM's proj

wat nonsense

but anyway it's more or less done
for now.
next three days in camp
trngs friendly trng friendly
aye
i wanna play a new game
before everything turns stale.

dinner with girls later
off to complete stuff for proposal

BORING

im really tryin to find a new sport
tennis is good
still finding sth tt gives me the adrenaline
and doesnt require interaction w water
suggestions?

smtimes i read
and i cant help but think
if it's been misunderstandings
i dunno.

good day ytd
but it seemed damn long
and yeah
i thought i was done w it
but i realised
i've no idea when i can speak of it honestly
and the way i want to speak about it in
no hiccups
no stammers.

interesting night
thanks man pple:)
time wont heal all wounds
getting ur answers will.
i guess
i hope they'll be enough
to show tt u made a right decision
ms lovely's a lady of steel
i swear i'll nv be able to do tt
the way u asked for ans
but pls don let the hatred overwhelm
look back and be glad u did it.
keep going lovely.

tennis-ed today
and down to gram's
lovely:)

the job offers been coming in
yeap.
but i've been turning them all down
crap.
why must there be SCH again next week..........

and camp. argh
campcampcampcamp.
argh.

oh but one good news for myself:)
aikido lessons startin soon
yeahyeah
dun tap me from behind in future
i may end up throwing u over
HAHA
i wish.

my white house
w many new friends
jenny
nat
cassy
nancy
lizzie
conked out.

all over. yes.
but the satisfaction's really not there.
maybe the effort wasn't enough.
but either way, it's over.
so hols now.
time to start on my plans for the next 7wks to come.
first up: get a job.

5 sems gone.
damn fast
and i havent any idea wat i wanna do
smtimes i think i know
then suddenly along comes sth
and the direction's gone agn
still
off to look up schools and offerings.
pls have a 2 yrs local 1 yr overseas one.

game first now :)

i've songs to acc me thru each phase
and this playlist is prob the best thus far:)
exams exams exams
but my mind's slackslackslack
and playplayplay

and it's so weird telling pple
im STUDYING a website
i don't want a second life btw
nono
not good
cos i suddenly rem
king or peasant
we all dance with the reaper.

we saw the differences today
and i've been irritated smtimes
but i told u still
that thanks.

i felt like a doc today
now i know why i wanted to be a doctor when i was 6
cos it feels good to help
and be helped.

3 wks before germ flies.
and soon. hsin and da.
my chicky club's gonna miss her
and we're gonna miss them too

is it a trend to fly?
ok i'm gonna fly too.
next yr when i finish my 6sems in np
to uk
lookin forward:)

she's too much for me

before sleeping.
resolution 2 (for 2mths break)
1. try paintball
2. tennis at least once every fortnight
3. gym: tbc
4. READ my story books. READ yes
5. sign up for golf
6. out out out. i want out
7. work.
8. oh yes. try minyi's plan.

how to fit these into 8weeks.
plus trngs.
ok i'll think bt it
dream bt it.

and there's camp.
the last camp
meant alot to me
moving up those steps
i nv wanna do it again
and i stoopidly kicked a big stone ytd
w the toe
then it all came back suddenly
well.
good and bad.
only the good remains:)

YEAH. SLEEP

vietnam was good:)
v good break
thou the books kept haunting me every now n then.
shopped shopped shopped
ateateate
die

and i saw again
that's how impt it is to a kid
their support and cheers
tt's perhaps the best gift of all
and i miss it
i nv heard again. then.

been studyin since i hit home
study break seems so short
good
im so gonna get away more often
energised:)

i think it's in every parent
to want their kid to do them proud
but i guess
you did it the wrong way
cos it's fear n loneliness i see in him.
i've always loved it
thou smtimes. yes. i didnt
but still.
sth tt i waited for
behind the fence.

back to vietnam
visited the cu chi tunnels
excellent work
hard to imagine how they could build
with bare hands
and survived
i admired.
and bobby traps
damn good











i tried shooting
super awkward positioning:{
almost went deaf
i think
the soldiers must have been deaf
from years of shooting
bam.

and the first lunch
room service.
we were too tired to get out
and the traffic
nonsense.
how to cross the road??!
almost puked on it

ME: 1 set meal per head?
RECEPTIONIST: yes
ME: Very sure? 1 set meal for each person?
RECEPTIONIST: yes 1 for each person.
ME: ok send it here quick:)
we almost choked on the food
i was sleeping when it came
and i literally saw three ladies carrying these in
literally thought i was dreaming
so went back to sleep
but my mom woke me up with her exclaimation
CRAZY.

SECOND DAY:
SHOPPING

funny. we actually had our ladies night out
twice in 4nights:)


Great steak:)

and check out the traffic. worse than china.


it was an accomplishment to cross 5 such roads on the second day
matter of getting used to it
standing in the middle of the road
and 'making eye contact' with them
letting them weeze past u
and continue TRYING to cross



good trip
good break
couple more days to another break
and start of my postponed resolution:)

sleep.

and when i realised.
it just din hurt
maybe
it din strike tt deep.
well done.

i love thousand miles
i love her hands
i love the piano

so im going to fine tune my piano keys
and play it all over again
from where i left off
so much to do.

next: sexy-saxophone:)
i love.

over.
for good:)
but dreads
it was torturous
esp having to listen for ur feedback
useless and stupid feedback
so. off i went

i haven't been able to speak my thoughts
help

just back from trng.
it still matters
but not as much now
it's just amazing
how sths can be brushed aside
but i think i do tt best
and yes. hold on
keep holding.
till it's over
i'll look forward to those days.

been bit confused
been thinking hard too
ur qs
everyday i see sth diff from u
and yes i'm getting e trust
but im afraid
i can't reciprocate
in the same way
still
it's close to me.
at least
i learnt
u could stay up there.

no expectations
no disappointments:)