finally tests are over. we literally have two exams every sem. and tt's sick. alot of luck this time. i think we really have to trust our guts sometimes. when u get too indecisive, just let ur guts give u the answer. and that's exactly what i chose to do for the first time.

met julie germ and partner for dinner.. germ's flying off tonight.. then julie's turn to fly.. all gg off..will be leaving for guangzhou later too.. short trip with mom. and tmr's partner's birthday.. happy birthday girl! yes you're finally as old as i am:>

it has been hard. the distance between us. knew it was goin to be hard, but not this hard. kinda lost focus on preparing for the tests.. until you came along with those words. that meant so much to me. thanks for ur luck:)

two weeks break. as good as nth again. trng camp next week, 2 friendlies 3 trngs in 3 days. test of our minds. hope everything will turn out fine. that things will settle down soon. before the real test comes in january. we've got so much to do.

wanna get so many things.. bags shirts shoes socks ( i love getting socks even though my drawer's full of them), handphone..my wish for santa this year would be cash:)

physical change tmr. yep.

and i realised yesterday, that i've neglected her admist all the tests n work. i need to stop taking things for granted. n wake up.

Tell all the dreams that you have let slip right through your hands
Do you feel lost inside of someone else's life

" He has never complained. He put up with the jealousy of Luis Figo and the comments from team-mates that the dressing room should smell of sweat, not aftershave. Every time he takes to the pitch, he puts his foot in and helps the team with that British spirit of never-say-die. If others had done the same, he would not have gone three years without winning anything"

-- Spanish sports columnist J J Santos pays tribute to David Beckham

musn't be too sensitive. it's bad.
but ur actions prove otherwise.
and words. absolutely disgust me.

yes. u.

second time im telling u.
get lost.

hectic week. stupid tests again. sth's really wrong with this system. we barely get to settle down and it's tests and exams flooding in.

training was ultimately tiring. silly neck.. stupid rain got us stranded with fitness again.
she didn't mention a word. but. it just sunk in for a minute. and my attitude was really bad.. shldn't have done that..

it's gona feel weird not seeing u for a week now..

i'm gonna give myself a break after the tests. a real break. need to refocus and do some adjusting. otherwise im gonna end up in shags. and time to meet up.. haven't met all for sometime.. always the difference in schedules..

and after the change in programmes for the camp, im not exactly looking forward to it anymore. hah. alil still though i guess.

and thx:) for encouraging.
it gives me alot of determination to keep going.
at least i know u care.
and that's enough.

next time - after tests

it's a matter of time i go mad
with all these people around
every sec more is torture
the only reason for persistence
has to be you

what day is it?
and in what month?
this clock never seemed so alive
i can't keep up and
I can't back down
i've been losing so much time

went for run yesterday. after red camp.. which i consider to be quite a success, considering the number of people trying out the shots at our area. even with the mini flood at the beginning. wasn't bit prepared for the neck ache though, from constantly looking up at the pole.

all of the things
that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
i'm tripping on words
you've got my head spinning
i don't know where to go from here

run was alright. managed to make it under the time she gave.. barely managed though. gonna run again tmr morning.. before the parents' seminar thing in the afternoon. the week hasn't been good, except for trng..and smtimes i really ask myself why im stil doing all these..

cause it's you and me
and all of the people with nothing to do
nothing to prove

and it's you and me
and all of the people
and I don't know why
i can't keep my eyes off of you

still deciding whether i shld go guangzhou with mom after tests and miss 2 trngs or postpone the trip.. every trng is so critical now. heck. it's draining.

there's something about you now
i can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right