after ten yrs.

monotone.
it's all just like a standstill sometimes. since the beginning of it.
serious need to get out of this
keep running running running
when it's the same spot still in fact

problems here shit there
it seriously doesn't stop
it's just so easy to ask for changes
but there's so much to bear behind
and you've just taken ur first step on mine.

i still hate school
never that much before
and all else
dread.

drag on.
for three weeks
then to vietnam
and exams
and break. finally.
i badly need a long break to get sick of breaks
cos im extremely sick of this.
two good months to decide
if a change will be good