awkward silence
awfully disliked
don't wanna leave it as such
but i haven't got the simplest of ideas
to guide us out of this circle
we need more words
spoken words.

slow down
let me catch up
and bring you back down
let me help
no is the last i wanna hear.

last time i'll be seeing you this way
it's been a rollercoaster ride
brought to extreme ends
only to realise now
what you meant in saying
that we're more often than not, misunderstood
you were
i believe i still am
no less than before
despite the many attempts
to bridge this gap.
if only you would stop
and listen
to what i've to say to you
but ifs truly are inconceivable fantasies.
time's almost up
yet here we are
still going in rounds.

the umpteenth time im feeling this way
and i start questioning
why i never learn
that people come
and they go
and we should take such times
with grace and smiles
cos it's time for them to go
and for us
to move on.

i found reasons for my irrational behaviour
not excuses
but reasons.
we shldn't be excused for irrationalities
but we have reasons to be irrational at times

everyday
i feel im approaching an imminent loss
and now im just a week away from it
from losing a part of what i've embraced into my life

still.
i'll keep believing
that contentment is the word
and the hopes should stop.

enough.


- songbird-