too late
i neglected
again
i looked in
it wasn't that face
i once saw

i've forgotten
the familiar sight
that familiar voice
the familiar scent
i vividly rem. rolling the paper
and being rewarded with polo mint sweets

i heard alot about you
the negativities
and i developed my own impression
of you, back then
but.
all moms love their children. most. at least.
and i believe
at some point in time
u loved her too

for 3 years
i nv saw u
negligence
i failed
failed terribly
i'm sorry

when i looked in just now
i realised it didn't feel
the way it should have
i
forgot
forgot how it feels
to lose someone
maybe
the immunisation sank in
numb.

history's been repeating itself
time after another
i keep thinking i've learnt
but i keep losing my priorities
and the effort to realise it
this feels.
absolutely.
crap.
it feels like im losing control
of everything
sorry

din expect to let her in on all these
i don't hate him
he din have a choice as well
he would have wanted to fulfill his promise to her
and sing her the birthday song again.
we've been singing on ur behalf
she's in safe hands
rest assured
we'll keep our word.

i miss. both of u.