jaded.

quite an eventful three weeks

work has been fine
getting to learn more now
and thankful for the help he's giving
and of cos
pretty colleague makes things so much better (: hah.
had great lunch on friday. and good news too.
it's just that conincidental sometimes

went for interviews
good learning experience definitely
but makes me doubtful again
elitist. bullshit.
another one on wednesday.
less nervous this time round
i'm just glad to have made it thus far.
and at the end of the day
im beginning to wonder what may happen if it advances.
perhaps suited more for normality.
being up, bearing expectations.
damn tiring.
3 yrs of this load has made me skeptical.

graduation day soon
28 may (:
then grad dinner on 31st. urgh
im looking forward to graduation,
definitely not the dinner thou.
i dun see the pt in this.
give me OUR grad dinner
not urs.

this month appears to be getting short
almost one day of leave each week
great.

and seeing the triplets has maded this week wonderful
can't find another word more describing, not just cute
but extremely.
when u see three little ones walking around the hse
perfect (:

off to dramas.
in the end
i'm still a drama queen.
not there.
but here.

i realised
i can't handle when it really comes.

saturday morning

feelin good on a saturday morning
work has been freakin boring
ACCOUNTANTS HAVE NO LIFE
nobody talks
it's disgusting
my irksome mentor hasn't been helpful either

but on a brighter note
my pretty colleague asked me out for lunch :)
i need a gym partner.

was watching the class video daisy made for final ppt
each time i watch it
feelings are stirred up
and with each time
im feeling more appreciative
and thankful
working w such a motivated class.

next week seems fun
haircut on monday
meetup w annie and sy on thurs
going back for baoc on friday w the rest
tues and wed to recover
mid week's damn hard to pass.

and lunching at raffles place is terrible
tissue papers, name tags, umbrellas
watever can be used to 'chop' a place
havent been lunching well
weather and crowd are major turnoffs
balances the insufficient exercising though i guess.

other than work
life's kinda borin
i need to find sth to do
and thank whoever it may be
for the new jurong redevelopment
my flat price will be gg up
YEAH
i'll probably be working in jurong in future
the thought of home and work being so near
sounds wonderful
im only hoping it doesn't really take 15 years
i'll be an old woman by then

and this thought suddenly crossed my mind
im not gonna spend 10 years fighting with crowds for lunch
time to think of sth.

don't need to look at paradise.
everyday can be legendary.

heartened

just came from another entry
very heartened to know i'm on the right track
after such a long struggle
it took me a long time
to realise it's just that simple
yes. that simple.
just a min of putting things down
and calling or typing
tt's the difference.
i'm glad things have turned out this way:)

and i got the awaited letter
wasn't as excited as i thought i would be
but definitely happy still.
i just had a pt to prove
and now i've that i've proven it
i need to find a second point to make.

first day of office work today
man an accountant's life is dead boring
my most commonly used qs today-
do you need help?
i figured im gona bring some stuff to read
hopefully it gets busier
and i never knew i'm expected to take 2 hours to print 17 files
now i know why everyone has a job
cos they simply sit on the job
and take 2 days to finish what could be done in 4 hours
right.
that's to way to keep your job it seems.
i'm going to ask my pretty colleague for lunch soon
when i cant even remember her name
damn.

i've been having amazingly wonderful dreams
makes me look forward to sleeping now each night.

post interview

done with interview.
was alil nerve wrecking initially when u see the big group
but im glad janice was around
it definitely made things easier

interview topic was about happiness being preordained
so the profs just shot questions for discussions at us
and u just really had to speak
cos everyone's trying so hard to be heard
relatively fine.
whether or not i'll get in is secondary
im just glad i went for it
it definitely was an experience
im still hoping for that other letter

and yes. i agree with the thoughts of an interviewee in our group
happiness is really about being contented
and how much you want it.

busy at work straight after the interview
working on saturay too wasn't interesting at all
im just glad its over
and looking forward to my new job next week:)
though there are so many reasons for me to hesitate
i think it's time i push myself through this.

ive no idea why my google countdown timer
is counting down to graduation

on a last note
i'm very glad i chose 3 yrs and not 2
i've been seeing the difference
pros and cons yes
but definitely more of the former
ive met amazing people
and over the past few weeks
ive learnt alot
things i know would have been neglected if not for them
so. im thankful he led me in this direction
now it's for me to find my own

it's crazy but
when u keep replaying the song
it somehow realises.

urge

sudden urge to blog before gg off for smu interview
it's been bugging me
i've no idea why either
just been feeling irritable
group interview doesnt help either
and definitely not a writing component after that

started work this week
very flexible hours honestly
but ive decided to do sth more relevant
hopefully gives me sm direction after this

end of 6 sems at np
last sem was good
good for all definitely
and we deserve it
i've been gg back to school
gyming and meeting up
finally feel healthy

so after spending one month gg for interviews
and choosing over n again
its time to get sth done

been watching ads these couple of days
interesting. very

been avoiding sm things
sorting sm out
feels like ive been doing this for years

and i enjoyed my 20th this year
thanks so much to everyone
goodbye teen
hello ty

off to get ready
hope it'll be good
hoping for another
but it's still an alternative
i hope

angel in disguise

ages since the last post. thought i would abandon it d
but decided to put some thoughts down.

tmr's my last presentation in np.
unique one definitely.
sth apart from the typical ppts
as im penning the points down for my individual report
i realised
i've learnt alot. intangible.
i rem dreading the process
waking up and going to bed with red camp
planning for business studies diploma display.
developing endless proposals and incorporating countless changes
running the 3 days of red camp
the nivea branding.
and yes. we made business studies the top diploma chosen in np.

with the class
packing and packing
meetings and MORE meetings
production line

with the lecturers
emails and more emails
calls and more calls
changes and more changes

with nivea
negotiation and more negotiation
samples, n more samples
collection of products
emails and yes, still more emails
crazy anticipation for meeting altricia from nivea
complains from daphne

but i've learnt.

with my class
humility
determination
drive
commitment
their support

with lecturers and nivea
working with lecturers/mgmt and external parties
tact
still humility
professionalism
efficiency
yes. better negotiation

i'm thankful.
for the people around
typically
the nostalgia's coming

this sem's projects:
smm (2)
ib (5 and 1 major)
bb ( 2)
lam (2)
bpc (yr's efforts)
hcom(2)
wisp (3)

i've enjoyed
and really learnt
though sometimes the result doesn't quantify the efforts
i've had great proj mates
absolutely

alot more for each of them
but damn difficult to put into words
i really appreciate.

and the team.
passed down
passed on the baby
2 years
all the ups and downs written here
and i told her.
after so long.
after it was long over.
thankful.

final presentation tmr.
afterwhich, back to final exams

and lately, one additional interest. v.
crazily.