clubhouse

came to sch ard 10 to do my IS enrolment, had to trouble glenn to help me check if was accessible cos i knew i wud be late. thanks loads glenn! and yep got in without any hitch, amazingly. but there were few modules to choose from.. wanted to take social psychology and service innovation but the latter was only available from week 1-7, so had to end up taking global cities. had to enrol real fast cos every time u move away from the particular enrolment page, a slot wud be gone and there were only like 1 or 2 slots for each module. my goodness. count myself lucky. then headed for clubhse, and did some own training and shooting. enjoyed:) preparing for sat's game with coach's friends.. gonna get whacked for sure. so now im sitting in the clubhse blogging. gonna stay home tmr probably. prob if carolyn's not working then will get out of the house or sth. otherwise, a full day at home. i think the situation's quite bad now, as in i can stay home the entire day without speaking a single word to my irritating aunt. considering the constant movement around her, it sounds weird not to be talking to her. yet i totally don't feel like i wana say anything or even listen to her. crap.. it's so pressurizing everywhere. even at home. so much responsibility just cos she doesn't wanna get a maid. argh. so i've to sacrifice my time to look after my gram every single minute of the day. and she'll never get well with all the attention showered on her. i mean who won't want attention and care, it's such a natural want and need. but when u overdo it, u'll kill the person. it's hard to even get out of the house.

had work yesterday, first day of work since my hols started, and shld be the last. one day thing only. did some escorting and helped out at the counter at the world roads conference. how lame can the name get. not too bad, met some nice people, and realised how much we chinese take things for granted, like everything and everybody ought to be at ur dispense. it's disgusting. i really like the way the caucasians actually show that they appreciate ur help, as small as it may be. it really means alot, and i definitely wanna learn this aspect of their culture. that aside, it was pretty much a fine day. i always enjoy meeting delegates:) hah. other than attending to the guests from time to time, carolyn and i were rotting quite abit. had time to even play pictionary. hah.somehow my jokes make me laugh at myself real hard. hah.. and her stupid 'hai de hen duo er zi'. hah.

was dead tired when i got home.. all the walking in the heels got me so tired, instead of the work.. heels are awful. i love shoes and slippers.

oh and i really loved sunday's dinner with my ah ma and aunts. they're all so nice.. despite us not going down to my ah ma's hse often.. it means so much to me when i feel their love. and i know he would be very happy if he was around with us. but i know he's always around:) i was telling my mom on sat bt how much i missed my ahma's spicy minced meat with extra lots of garlic, and on sunday she turned up with what i was wishing for exactly:) and she's always telling my sis and i to let her know if we wanna eat her tom yum soup or pig's heart cooked in ultra delicious rice wine, and she would go to the market, get the stuff and cook before my mom goes down to her place to bring it back for us. that's why she's such a sweetie. she makes me feel so guilty forhurrying my dad and mom back from her place every time we went down when we were young. but what hurts most is how i was told that my gonggong would wait for my family to reach before starting the meal. and i was so reluctant to have dinner at my ah ma's place last time, so knowing this only after he left took me down back then. i just wanna love my ah ma more now.

gonna finish up a book and return soon b4 i get another fine.

finally decided to blog. haven't updated for some time..

timeline-- exams ended, went perak, back with a disgusting bout of stomach flu (what's new), started training again, slacking at home looking after gram, meeting up with the girls:), looking for a job now (after 2 weeks of rotting), getting in shape for upcoming games, visiting nat. eyecentre, signing up for driving again, and lastly taking a good break.

kinda routined life, 4mths of slogging then 6wks of break.. seems like good, but the 6weeks makes it hard to get into condition for the following 4mths after that.

perak trip first:
i honestly dunoo how i should put it, whether it was enjoyable or not, cos the after-trip thing made it so sick. but yep i guess i realised my weaknesses, coming face to face with water has never been more frightening. it was definitely fun, the rafting and the abseiling. only that the body rafting drill made me rooted to the ground. very much regret not doing one of the drills, but still, am glad i actually did manage to calm myself down for the last one and the capsizing. need to go do sth bt it i think..overall, quite an enjoyable trip:)

came back and got the silly gastric flu again so was stuck at home for 4whole dreadful days.. and it made me remember the very first time i experienced this sort of pain, when i was 8. it was so painful then that i just rolled around the house and my dad carried me on his back to the nearest clinic, with me crying non-stop. his back was unusually warm. then got it a couple of times again throughout the yrs, and another time in china, lijiang. he was also the one who brought me to the hospital and stayed just beside the whole long night. the sight of the doctor and hospital obviously didn't make things better cos the doc was limping to me, and the toilet walls were like, splashed with shit. and the oxygen tank, it's literally the huge long metal oxygen tank they used ages ago. but still, i felt so safe with him by my side. always have been.

went to driving centre to sign up for the practical lessons last week, but i was told to get a letter from the eyecentre to certify me fit to drive with the lazy eye problem. argh.. so gt an appt for the following wed, afterwhich i'm gonna sign up straight away. i wanna drive. and sis is giving me daily reminders to get my license. what a nag. other than that, gonna try to get a job for the last 3 weeks of hols, and prepare for the games starting 9th oct.

met germ julie and my partner yesterday in town, chilled out and talked for 5htrs. talked alot. and thought alot. hah. even after we left..

oh yes and got my ipod video.. finally:)

going off for dinner with my ah ma and aunts. love her loads. she's such a sweetie.

no updates, kinda tired. was telling the insect i dun have the urge to type anything that takes more than 5 sentences.. so replies to tags, and will be ard again when i can get some pics up..

i feel determined to train.